Learn from my mistakes

I've been married for over 26 years to a man I deeply love, a man who doesn't love Jesus with me. Through our hard marriage, God has helped me see the error of my ways and led me in better ways when it comes to loving my husband.  This morning, one of the typical tests… Continue reading Learn from my mistakes

Christ will redeem what seems like will never happen

Tonight after 13 hours at the hospital, I walked out my back door with my dog Lukas, and we made our way, as usual, the half acre back to where the chickens and goats were already roosting and chewing their cud under the stars. While I was filling up their empty water buckets, despising the… Continue reading Christ will redeem what seems like will never happen

Where the beauty of God is found: Meditation on Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their toil. For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up! -Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 ESV Last summer, after a week long vacation with my family… Continue reading Where the beauty of God is found: Meditation on Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

My Psalm

How long? How many more days do I have to cry bitterly asking you how long? My heart is sick my hope is deferred my heart hopes for what I can't conjure. How long must I try to find a quiet place to get away from the constant strain of this yoke pulling me one… Continue reading My Psalm

When you feel like you’re endlessly marching around a wall

"Now Jericho was shut up inside and outside because of the people of Israel. None went out, and none came in. And the Lord said to Joshua, "See, I have given Jericho into your hand, with its king and mighty men of valor. You shall march around the city, all the men of war going… Continue reading When you feel like you’re endlessly marching around a wall

Sermon notes: Stay married like you’re not. Stay single like you’re not…

Today my pastor preached from a section of scripture that stirs up all kinds of conversations and historical prudish or bizarre teachings about sex, marriage and singleness.  Despite the potential for dangerous interpretation, he did a great job of bringing the truth to light.  I was keenly interested in this message because the section of… Continue reading Sermon notes: Stay married like you’re not. Stay single like you’re not…

What my unbelieving friend and I have in common: doubt

My husband is my friend.  For almost 25 years we've shared a bed, a home and all the dirty humanity we can't groom or hide in those shared spaces.  And although we don't share a worshipful response to Christ, we do have something very much in common: doubt. I listened to the end of a… Continue reading What my unbelieving friend and I have in common: doubt

God’s sovereignty and bridges

We went to the gym as a family today.  It's a new stage of life for us.  Both of our sons are now tall young men.  My husband is the resident personal trainer and all things fitness in our family.  If it were up to me, we'd all just put on flip-flops and go for… Continue reading God’s sovereignty and bridges

A theology of loving your unbelieving spouse

A Facebook friend recently asked a question after reading my piece about the 8 words. Her question in essence was, "How does God want you to love your husband when he doesn't share the same love of Christ you have?" I'm not a seminary graduate, but as my pastor says, I am a theologian.  We all… Continue reading A theology of loving your unbelieving spouse