Man shall not live by Prozac alone

In March, Fathom Mag published an article I wrote about my own struggle to concede my need for an anti-depressant. A wise pastor and friend helped me to see that medication was not an alternative to provision from God. It was a provision from God. I've been taking Prozac for a couple years now and... Continue Reading →

Depression, my servant

you came abruptly i was fine did i let you in? you don't answer questions you invade change the chemistry like gas an undetected trap but now i know you're here now i know and i'll hold my breath or poke my head outside instead i know you want to lull me to sleep you... Continue Reading →

I don’t want to write about depression

I've been struggling since Thursday when we left the lodge at Hannagan Meadow.  I thought I was just bummed because we were leaving, but the heavy sadness in my face and chest hasn't left since Thursday.  I've been irritable, tired, on the verge of tears and numb.  It's depression.  I hate it. I hate it... Continue Reading →

3 Things To Do When Depression Sets In

That old familiar fog started setting in yesterday. Fog is the most tangible comparison I know of for what depression feels like. Life is going along just fine and suddenly like a thick fog at ground level, the kind that happened in Oregon where I grew up, depression sets in.  You can't see the hope that... Continue Reading →

No Bootstraps To Grab

(photo credit)I've been sitting in the library for the past couple hours trying hard to answer a discussion question for my online class.  Doesn't seem like a big deal.  It's not.  But what is is depression.  Depression is a big deal.  It's real.  Real as Oregon fog blocking the view of a breathtaking coast.  Maybe... Continue Reading →

My theory on fizzle and fade

I was thinking the other day about the patterns in my life. I have bursts of creativity that tend to fizzle and fade. But writing has been a steady pattern of unsteadiness since I was about 10 years old. I have bursts of creativity in writing that still fizzle and fade but they don't stay... Continue Reading →

Advent meditation: Joy

(That was a sunrise a week or so ago.)Well, it's 10 O'clock, and everyone is in bed and it's finally quiet so I can think. I'm trying to stave off some bug that's decided to give me a dizzy-headache and sore throat in the last hour. Hot tea and lots of vitamin C I'm hoping... Continue Reading →

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