I have been planning our yearly summer trip to Oregon, trying to keep a semblance of order yet keep the vacation in our summer break, doing the daily things that keep a home running and in the back of my mind through it all I have blog posts going through my brain. Smile. Sigh.
Time budgeting is much like money budgeting for me. I find if I don’t set aside the allotment for the necessary I’ll spend it all on the unnecessary. But then usually the necessary uses up so much of the budget that there’s not much room for the unnecessary. Writing isn’t unnecessary to me, but if I don’t get up early enough or stay up late enough the opportunity to write is missed. Problem is its usually throughout the day that I think of things I want to write. I find myself jotting down thoughts on scratch pieces of paper or in the many journals I have floating around wherever I go. I have a bunch of pictures of meals I’ve made in iPhoto. One of these days…
There’s a terrible bunch of knotted up muscles descending from my left jaw, down my sternocleidomastoid and trapezius accompanied by a hideous grinding/crepitus sound from the base of my skull on the right side when I turn my head. I’m convinced this is all due to the damaged TMJ on my left side that, after years of gab, grind and grub is permanently flawed. I don’t know what to do about it. Do I see a dentist? A chiropractor? An ENT? A physical therapist? My family practice doc? What would they do about it?
About 2 months ago I started experiencing pain with squatting in my knees- left worse than right. I ignored it and joked about approaching 40. Its gotten worse to the point getting up from a sitting position or sitting down is causing a stabbing pain in my left knee. A week ago we went fishing, I climbed up the rocky trail to our car, pushed off with my left leg in a lunge position and the pain just about brought me tumbling down the trail. Since then, I cannot squat, lunge, sit, climb stairs, get out of my car…anything that involves bearing wait and bending my left knee to a 45 degree angle, without some serious, eye-watering pain. This is really messing with my plans to keep doing Crossfit style workouts 3 days a week. My husband thinks its a torn meniscus. I know what they do for that. I don’t like that option. And I thought men were the stubborn ones when it comes to medical stuff.
I’m only 38, but my body feels things I didn’t expect to feel until my 50’s.
We’re planning to drive the famous Pacific Coast Highway in California, from Morro Bay to San Francisco next week. I love the ocean view. I like mountain views too, but if I had to choose, I’d choose ocean. Desert view isn’t very high up on my list… but it has a beauty.
I am so looking forward to this trip. A Geek Squad guy at Best Buy named Connor (with an O like our Connor who umps Little League) helped us buy a GPS for the trip and wrote out some must-see places in Santa Cruz, San Fran and Half Moon Bay for us to consider stopping at on our trip. Apparently he’s from the area.
At the end of our PCH California trip are my precious nephews, sister and her man. The boys can’t wait to go fishing. I can’t wait to hug my sister and nephews and listen to their sweet voices. I treasure the time I get with my family in Oregon. I wish I could just stop by and visit Aunt Kandace or head to grandma’s house for the day. I’m very thankful for the friends in AZ who have become family to my boys. Nevertheless I wish I could be closer to my mom and dad and family.
After my sister we’ll move up to where my mom, dad, brother, grandmother, grandfather, nieces, nephews, sister-in-love (as opposed to law… saw that written somewhere and loved it!), and house full of more nephews are. We miss them all! My boys would literally move in with the house-full clan if they could! They look up to my now graduated from high school nephew Ethan, and the next in line Nolan. They treasure the play time with Avery and feel like big brothers when they get to be with Liam and Quintin. The always leave that house wishing they had “10 brothers.” Sigh.
I’ve been thinking about what my “voice” is. Writers talk about finding their voice. It feels weird to call myself a writer. I write, but I guess I wouldn’t consider myself a writer unless I was published. Is a person who rides bikes a cyclist? I guess. I feel more comfortable with calling myself a journaler. Maybe that’s my voice. Journaling.
Ann Voskamp is one of my favorite blogger-writers. She’s definitely a writer. Her voice- poetic, encouraging, meditative. I leave her blog encouraged, agreeing.
Pastor Craig is another favorite blogger-writer. In fact, right now, theirs are the only blogs I read regularly. I’ve also read a book from each. Pastor Craig’s voice is humorous, insightful, editorial. I leave his blog smiling every time!
I don’t know what my voice is. A few people have told me I have a different way of putting things that helps them understand. Interesting how that works. Interesting how a person can use words to open doors of understanding.
The Bible really is a living book! It’s inspiration is inexhaustible. God’s word opens doors of understanding that no one can shut and shuts doors of understanding that no one can open. To voluntarily yield yourself to the authority of another is God-like. To fight for your rights is human. To suffer for doing what’s right is divine. To fight back is fallen nature. To entrust yourself to the One who judges justly is Christ-like. To strive to prove you’re right is what we all do. To be a Christian is to be a hupotosso-er. We do not follow a weak, mousy, doormat. We follow the Creator of the Universe who humbled Himself, who bent low to lift us up, who huppotosso-ed and saved us.
I read Ann’s post about an encounter with a stranger in an airport. He asked her what “kind” of Christian she was. Her answer resonated with me:
Isn’t being a Christian rather like being pregnant? You either wholly are or you really aren’t — is there an in between? How did we become known as “kinds” of Christian instead of being simply, humbly, loving Christians? What if following Christ was about a living faith not about wearing faith labels — about living Christ-behaviour, not living in Christian boxes?